Before I get into the bulk of this post, I’d like to take a minute and apologize for the lack of posts lately- I came down with a pretty bad cold accompanied by a fever, and I’m just now getting on my feet.
Anyway, this post isn’t what I originally had planned for today, but it’s been on my mind lately… is following your dream really worth it?
Let me elaborate. As long as I can remember, my dream has been to travel. I have countless places on my bucket list (maybe I’ll do a post on that someday), but one that is especially important to me is Paris. Ever since was a child, I’d wanted to live in France. Then, in middle school when I started taking French classes, I absolutely fell in love with the French and Parisian culture. I remember the French classes took a trip to Paris over spring break- I wanted to go so badly, and I tried to start selling my things and starting “businesses” and asking for donations, but it never happened. Fast forward a few years, and here I am, thinking about college.
There a few that I think would be a good match for me, but one jumps out the most: The American University of Paris. It’s beautiful; every single one of their degree programs are ones I’ve considered for a career, including environmental science, film studies, history, politics, writing, and literature; and it’s in the city of my dreams. Everything about it is everything I’ve always wanted, except one thing: the price.
It is crazy expensive and way beyond my price range. I know there are plenty of options including financial aid and student loans, but it will still be extremely difficult. And if I did make it happen, here’s what it would look like: constant part-time jobs, leading to an extremely busy schedule with no time (or money) to explore the city; most likely a degree in English that may not even get me anywhere; no money for a plane ticket to visit my family in the U.S.; and a lifetime of student loans that would prevent me from living out the rest of my dreams.
This brings me to the underlying question: is it worth it? It’s my dream, but will my life really be better if I find a way to make it happen? People often say to follow your dreams, to never let anything stop you, especially finances, but I don’t know if that is really the best option. The picture I see of my struggles in Paris isn’t ideal, but is it worse to not even try?
When I imagine my life at some other boring, affordable college, living in a dorm, taking classes in some tedious subject that will lead to a tedious yet “successful” career, never getting a chance to travel and live out my dreams, it makes me shudder, more so than living out my dreams on a tight budget. I understand it isn’t “exciting but poor life” or “boring but financially safe life”- nothing is black or white like that, but it certainly feels that way.
What do you think?
Thoughts from a Creative Soul 